It just struck me while i was running recently, passion without discipline and hardwork is just wishful thinking. I have seen people like that, and I hope I'm not one of them :/ Dun think i'm putting in enough effort in living a life that's dicsiplined. Idk, like not running sometimes when I'm supposed to, or not working out enough, and especially not readign the word of God enough.
So I thought about it, if i get extremely interested by military films and games but don't have the discipline and willpower to work towards preparing for my career, I am but a dreamer that is not self motivated. If thoughts of Christ dying for me touches my heart to the point of tears but I don't care enough to choose to read the word of God instead of doing something else, it is simply emotions, and not actually following Christ. Everyone feels sorry for the old beggar on the street with no legs, but how many will do something to help the beggar?
My point is, I've been pretty much living my life based on my emotions. I seriously need to kick my arse and stop that. I can't be doing what I feel like all my life, as to get somewhere/something one has to lose something else. For whoever loses his life gains it and whoever keeps his life loses it. Not easy, yea, no one said it ever would be, but it's what I need to do.
On a side note, the flame doesn't die. Every conversation I have is like blowing air to remove the ashes on burning wood, causing the flame to burn even stronger. How am I gonna keep this up :/ Insanity.
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