Passion....or not? Sunday, August 28, 2011 at 9:42 AM
It just struck me while i was running recently, passion without discipline and hardwork is just wishful thinking. I have seen people like that, and I hope I'm not one of them :/ Dun think i'm putting in enough effort in living a life that's dicsiplined. Idk, like not running sometimes when I'm supposed to, or not working out enough, and especially not readign the word of God enough.
So I thought about it, if i get extremely interested by military films and games but don't have the discipline and willpower to work towards preparing for my career, I am but a dreamer that is not self motivated. If thoughts of Christ dying for me touches my heart to the point of tears but I don't care enough to choose to read the word of God instead of doing something else, it is simply emotions, and not actually following Christ. Everyone feels sorry for the old beggar on the street with no legs, but how many will do something to help the beggar?
My point is, I've been pretty much living my life based on my emotions. I seriously need to kick my arse and stop that. I can't be doing what I feel like all my life, as to get somewhere/something one has to lose something else. For whoever loses his life gains it and whoever keeps his life loses it. Not easy, yea, no one said it ever would be, but it's what I need to do.
On a side note, the flame doesn't die. Every conversation I have is like blowing air to remove the ashes on burning wood, causing the flame to burn even stronger. How am I gonna keep this up :/ Insanity.
Silence is golden Wednesday, August 10, 2011 at 6:55 AM
Here @ blogger, is where I can state the stuff where I can't on facebook. LOL Because almost no one reads blogger anymore. And I find it convenient to just type down my thoughts and keep a record of them without having to keep em in a book that takes space and collects dust. Pragmatist much?
Anyway, they say silence is golden. But it's painstakingly golden if you ask me. Keeping it hush is just so insane at times. When you try to hide it from all the rest, when you question every interaction, where you yearn but know you can't do much about the feeling. It's a volcano of emotions, needing to erupt but unable to.
As always logic comes to the rescue, having the knowledge on this matter, what then? What after the silence is broken? It could only lead to a whole cluster jam of confusion and uneccesary crap. Sometimes I feel it's unfair, Sometimes I feel that it's just another one to just wait and let it painfully die a slow death. But I know it's the right thing to do. I shall wait on you Lord, for you are faithfull and I know that you will come through for me.
Lovely Monday, August 08, 2011 at 11:06 AM
Crazy. Wednesday, August 03, 2011 at 12:21 PM
You know how i feel? Crazy.
Unfortunately life is not black and white. I shall use this time to sort out my crap because i'm still so far behind. Man shouldn't live by emotions, we should live by the word of God.
Soldier 
