It's a combustion of strong feelings. different causes, different parts of my life. now it feels like the pin is pulled and it's gonna blow.
All that I have been trained to do, is it now gone to waste? I have always served with the mindset thinking that no matter how bloody screwed up things were, I'd stick to it, suck it up and keep going for the sake of passion and of the people under me. I thought, if not I, then who? But perhaps I was wrong. Perhaps nothing really could have been done to see this once glorious organisation fall into a nothing but a defecated pit of lies. it's gone way off the aim of why the organisation was created itself. why carry on? it seems like nothing but a corporation now.
what values are present in the people nowadays?
Things like discipline and professionalism is nowhere to be found even among the highest levels of leadership(I have to add a disclaimer though, that there are still a very few people that still got it and I truly respect). It seems hopeless, it really does. for the old schools that behaved with pride and dignity when wearing the uniform of the organisation, the people nowadays no longer share that. they have no pride in themselves. they don't stand up for what they believe is right, and the list goes on.
It greives me to see what this organisation has become. I think it's about time to put an end to this once glorious organistion turning more and more into a joke. What say you to change? Eargerly, anxiously, angryly, dissapointedly waiting for that day. If we go down imma tear down the whole place. no more of this shit, seriously.
And there's the stuff I need to put up with at work. And my personnal walk with God. I shan't say too much for now. God give me strength.
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