Been awhile, as always. Few things on my mind right now.
First one's AHM, been corbo loading and it SUCKS. Darn never has pasta tasted that plain in my entire life. But well, I'll do what I must even if it's suffering for now, been training so long for it and I ain't gonna let myself, or my team, or my corps down. It's on this sundaaaaaay.
I'm still in the midst of my UTs as well. Should be focusing more on studies instead of doing unimportant things like this, facebook and youtube. daaarn. 3 down, 2 to go, they put the most difficult ones for last :( sports coaching and sports sociology. sigh, and it's directly after my AHM I'm so screwed.
Another thing, THE WHOLE WORLD is telling me to make a move on the girl I like. Darn. I hate it when this happens, like all your best friends tell you to do something that your reluctant to do. Why don't I make a move yet? Because I don't think the time is right yet, I don't wanna rush into things and end up breaking a heart. I don't want this to just be about me, it's not just me getting a girlfriend it's being there for that person. But i'm nowhere near even being close friends with her.
Perhaps I think too much, maybe I'm just scared, idk. Yes I know, I'm 20 this year and I havent had a girl in my life, but what's the point of having a girl only to lose her and turn bitter towards that person which you loved so dearly? Maybe I'm afraid, the nature of my job isn't something many girls can accept, being away for long periods of time, being away for unknown time and destination, not easy. As sheereen put it, "You'll never find one in singapore." Sadness. God give me a girl that's gonna prove that statement wrong.
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