Dreams, Reality, Emotions. all mixed up right now. It's as if God placed the dreams last night as a preperation for what i read today. No i will not follow emotions blindly. They rage in my heart, stirring up non-describable feelings of yearning, but that's the way of the world isn't it? getting into it just because thier emotions tell them to. Getting into it just to take and not to give. Getting into it without a Godly end in mind. I will not go for it until i know that i can resist the flesh, until i can be sure of the compatibility, until i can be a man who abides by the word of God. I won't put her at risk until I'm sure. Let this be a test for me, though my heart yearns like never before even as i type this post. True, I've waited long, but if i rush blindly, the devil will easily attack me at my blindspots. hmm, never let emotions blur your judgement right? waiting an unbearable wait, Lord, it's only through you that i can do this. Your will, your time.
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