been waking up eveyday at like 5am plus for the past 3 days, worrying what will happen if i fail. oh well, gonna make use of this fear as a extra boost of fuel to study reeaal hard and get myself into poly. one grade each, it ain't so hard i can do this, need to set my mind to it and it'll be fine.
ok, so in the midst of all the studies there's infatuation all over me as well. Gosh i am so neck deep in it and i dun even think she knows i'm still this mad over her after all these years. well what's a guy to do? oh and don't be telling me to go ahead and make a move or whatever, cause despite the feelings, i dun believe in getting into a relationship purely based on feelings. she must get along well with me, we must be able to forgive and forget, give in to each other...cause love ain't just about feelings. It's a committment. And if i dare end up breaking up with a girl and leaving her worse of than what she used to be than thats just plain wrong. i wonder why so little people think the way i do. can't they tell? after breaking up again and again and getting hurt over and over again? sheesh, what's the basis?
Ah well, gonna go back studying already. I REALLY must make it this time. God grant me discipline to study for long hours and a receptive mind that will retain info taken in. Clement over and out.
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